The strangest thing happened last night in my dreams. Evidently I was yelling and screaming for help in my dreams so much so that my wife had to leave the bed for awhile because she thought I might be kicking her unconsciously which I have been known to do. What was interesting is that I had no memory of it happened. I woke up fairly normally and pretty positively. So what was going on there? It is an interesting question.

Here are my thoughts. Maybe you have some too or have had similar dreams. Feel free to share them. I am yelling for help in the dream world which means that I have fear of something bad happening, but then it doesn’t enter my memory. To me that makes me think that it is a fear that I am trying to bury, keep hidden so that others do not find out about it. It is like I have to put on a brave face to the world, and not allow others to see that there is some kind of terror inside.

I am going to go inside now and ask what the fear is that is trying to be buried from the outside world. Note: This is just like doing a meditation. You quiet yourself, relax, breathe, sit with patience, and ask the question.

The fear says that it is afraid of being locked up in a prison-like place with all kinds of restrictions placed on it like when I was in a military academy.

The next question is how does the fear act in behavioral terms? The fear acts by hiding away almost like being in prison.

It says that every time that I tried to break out of the restrictions and act more freely, then the leadership made the prison stricter, that the leadership needed absolute control and was fearful of people acting with creativity and initiative to do innovative things.

The next question is whether or not the fear is still relevant. The answer is no, but the fear doesn’t want to let go.

The problem obviously with holding onto the fear. is that, while it keeps me protected, it also keeps what I want to do hidden. It is trying to keep me safe, but I am not getting to where I want to go. I need to be free and unshackled with the creative and other pursuits.

Next Question: If I were free and unshackled and could put my stuff out there easily, what would that look like and feel like? It feels like a gazelle, leaping and running swiftly in positive directions.

What is your unconscious fear?