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Richard Hastings
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Richard,
Last nights dream was all over the place and only the key parts are sticking with me. Here they are in the order they happened:
It was light at night and I was going to bed, my bed was in front of a window and walls tight to both sides of the bed. The blinds were open and it was pitch black outside. I looked out the window to ensure no one was there looking back at me (**I need to note that I dream of looking out of a window when its black outside often enough and never see anything and in waking life when my blinds have been open all day I will also look out the window before I close them, again never seeing anyone and sometimes I flip off the window –no idea why– but an f you if there ever was someone) okay so I look out the window in this dream and dont see anything and I put up my middle finger on both hands and close the blinds. Then something from the outside opens the blinds back up and begins peeking through. It was in the shape of a person, but it was large, like fat but it’s skin was a light milkshake brown and skin looked like a pile of wet dog poo if that makes sense. (Like “gloppy” in the molasses swamp in the Candy Land game). It’s fingers were fat like sausages and it had a masculine and negative energy to it. I was scared and began to back away trying not to look at it but also I couldn’t look away. I woke myself up and it took me a bit to go back because I kept seeing the scary face peering through the window in my minds eye. (**another note – I have been doing much grounding that day and working extra hard to raise my vibration and not give into the lower frequency things of the waking world that cause negative emotions). It really almost felt like it was a being/energy in the dream world that was trying to taint my soul to affect me in the waking world and I say that from the protection meditation I had done a few hours prior to bed.
Next part of the dream I was in my garage with my bio daughter and two of her friends (in waking life those friends have lived 2 doors down for 5 years) and I was telling them about the window man and we talked about how creepy it was.
Later in the dream I was at a house touring it to buy and the house was on a large plot of land and had streams and waterfalls inside and the windows all came down to make it more open like a porch and then there was this very odd thing with all the ways to make a milkshake and it played like an ad in the dream, it was odd. But then something or someone was taken from me, I want to say it was my son but I cannot clearly recall. Well I went after these people showing the house who took him and it ended it this war situation with weapons of sorts and a car crashed nearly missing either me or my son. I watched it from that persons point of view in slow motion (which is why I am unsure if it was actually me or him, but it feels more like him). In the end I believe I was victorious but I dont recall how it ended.
When I woke up I gave little thought to the dream and hoped it would fade away, but thoughout the day these parts nag at me so I know I need to try to understand what they mean a little more.
Dear C,
When you look out of window in a dream and it feels positive, it normally has to do with the vision of your life in front of you. In your dream you are trying to keep the darkness from coming in including giving it the middle finger, but the dark visions come in anyway. It seems that that was the purpose of the meditation earlier in the day; to try to keep the negatives from overcoming you. What you should be developing instead is a healthy relationship with dark visions or dark emotions. They actually have a positive purpose because they are the doorways to the brighter visions. The fear is that a dark force is going to come into your Self and then reside their and do damage. And then that transfers over to being fearful for the same happening to your son. The best way I have found to deal with darkness is to be calm, detached, and curious, which is not always possible, but when I am in that state, then I can move from the fear-related state to a more positive one that is light-filled. The Creator always wants you to move toward higher competence, higher levels of light. The method of getting to a higher state in your being is be able to deal with the dark energy around you. When you flip-off the darkness, it laughs at you. When you get curious about it, it gets scared because it no longer has power over you. Where you are headed is a bright, bright place. What you need is the darkness to guide the journey because the darkness shows you where you are weak.
It’s not really a dream to interpret, but I need help understanding. For about 3 weeks now I have not been able to differentiate my dreams from reality. For example, in reality I’ll be at work and have a conversation with a coworker and that night in my dreams I’ll have an extension of that same conversation but with added extras. Then when I wake up I’ll have to literally take a few minutes to try and separate real life from the dream! My dreams are basically merging with my reality. But throughout my life I’ve had a bunch of dreams of my mouth filling up with teeth and they just pour out my mouth like porcelain water and the other night in my dream, my top 6 front teeth along with my jaw slid out my mouth like dentures. Can you help me understand something??! Anything!?
Dear Celia,
What an interesting experience you are having? The best way I can think of to explain the phenomenon is to tell you that as a human being, you are always having two simultaneous experiences in life. One is spiritual, while the other is material. And they appear together. The reason that your teeth come out is that you cannot understand what is happening, literally chew on the ideas to get to understanding. So for instance, you may be doing a task that requires tricky communication with other colleagues. The material task is what you say to get the job done. The spiritual task is more qualitative, like using patience, tact, assertiveness, compassion, empathy, firmness, or discernment. When you a dream that matches real life, you can ask yourself the simple question of what quality or positive process do you need to become more effective in what you are doing. The two things exist together, and if you develop the positive process that the work requires, then your work will get better and better. My family members and I try to think of real life more like a dream state. For instance, maybe someone who is really negative comes into your work environment. We would ask, why do I need to have the person in my enviroment? What quality is the appearance of that person asking me to develop in myself?
[continued] after all, their beam weapons were not configured the same as ours,and i had possibly saved his life with that action. everywhere i looked the enemy was in retreat. our own side were without doubt the winners in this battle. there were still some isolated pockets of resistance. what i saw next surprised me. i ran into someone who seemed familiar but i could not quite place where i had seen him. “greetings” he said. i returned the greeting. “congratulations on our victory” ME:{still trying to place where i had seen him before} yes. it certainly was that. you seem familiar. where did i see you before? HIM: in the clearing. ME: {hoping to identify him} what type of ray did you fire? HIM: iron and titanium. i got off 2 bursts ME: what happened? HIM:two of your men hit me with a double burst ME: our men? (i knew furthermore that metallic beams were all hostile) but you must have been with the other side HIM: that’s right. when i started out. then those beams hit me,and drove out all hostility, all anger,all desire to fight. all of a sudden i knew where i had seen him. he had been one of the men at the head of the obstructionist column that opened the battle. he had been one of the original combatants. one of the group that had tried to take one of ours prisoner which started the battle in the first place. and i had seen him take 2 hits at once. he was,in fact one of the first to go down. ME: well, that is very chivalrous of you HIM: it is my victory,too. all of those feelings i was carrying around with me, all the hate, all the greed, all the animosity was zapped right out of me . i am starting out anew. oh, am i ever glad. our rays fired gemstone rays and fruit and minerals such as Selenite, Magnesium and Cobalt. theirs used Radioactive metals such as, uranium and radium designed to either stun or immobilize an opponent or at least incapacitate him by whatever means necessary. ours used gemstone rays noted for their healing effect . their employed weapons such as gamma rays and a jagged half yellow,half burnt leaf color beam which could imprison anyone or anything it touched,depending on its level of intensity. in short,our weapons were healing and soothing. theirs were capturing and subduing. [continued]
Dear James,
That was pretty epic. No one has ever sent me anything nearly as long or detailed. Basically the battle seems to be the one in real life we are engaged in which is the forces of light transforming the darkness. The different colors seem to represent the differentiated powers of positive energy which in real life would be things like love, compassion, courage, determination, generosity, purity, etc. When they are used as a unified force, they have the power to drive out the negative ego forces inside people. The dream seems to be an indication of how to make the world a better face and what kind of battle we are fighting. We are driving out anger and hostility with powerful rays of positive energy working cooperatively. In order to be good fighters in this positive cause you can’t let the negative forces make you feel dazed or lose attention. You were able to overcome what they do and that is not an easy process. Time to change the world.
dear Richard, more than one person has told me that. and i have to agree. it is epic, i do not know quite who Dr Isiah really is,symbolically. perhaps my ideal of a leader. perhaps a spirit guide, definitely an ally. one friend i told about it said it sounded like a sci-fi adventure.it is one of the longest dreams i have ever had.and also one of the most vivid. i should have the rest of it in the next two days or so. i do not recall a single dream that i have had such difficulty posting
You are meant to have an epic life
Richard,
Last night I had a dream that I had a baby boy. I was so in awe of this baby and just loved him so much and could not stop hugging and kissing and holding him (in waking life I LOVE babies and my youngest is 10 years old and my husband has a vasectomy so no more kiddos for us nor do I really want to start over in parenting). But i was breast feeding this baby boy on my left side over and over to the point my breast as long and empty (looked like a stretched out raisin with the lines and such) and was translucent which I thought was odd. I tried to breast feed on the right and at first the baby didnt want it and eventually he latched and my left breast went back to normal from having a break.
At some point we were at a gun range with my other 4 kiddos and the baby needed a change so I laid him in the grass to change him.
Overall the dream was pleasant and I loved the time I got in the dream land to be a new parent again and have a new baby to love all over.
Dear C,
When you have a dream of having a new baby and breastfeeding him, it means that a new quality has been born inside of you that is masculine in nature. Masculine qualities usually have to do with things like strength or assertiveness. Whatever it is, it is just beginning in you and you need to nurture so that it becomes a part of your inner family of positive energies. Think about what quality would make a big difference in your life right now. That is probably what you need.
[continued] we were now advancing and the obstructionists were very unquestionably on the run. what struck me most is this:, if an obstructionist happened to get up and wander the field or if he showed no signs of opposition or hostility he would be left alone, but if he happened to say anything negative,discouraging, pessimistic or cynical he would be instantly treated to a dose of gemstone and fruit rays. such as “no good will come out of this” ZAPPP! a lime green and white sapphire beam instantly went into action, knocking him up against a wooden wagon,which he collapsed into(the wagon was hickory,,a wood so tough it was used as a byword for toughness, tough as hickory meant he was as tough as they came) another one said “there is no such thing as a right side and a wrong side.just groups with similar interests” did they let him have it! i never saw so many beams aimed at one man gold beams at the top(we had captured quite a few of their weapons. Dr Isiah said “of course you can use them .use ’em as they were meant to be used”) a silver beam ,very wide hitting him from his forehead to his stomach,, a red ruby ray hitting him directly in the heart ,a yellow topaz beam dousing him from head to foot. a green emerald ray hitting his face,neck and shoulders, and a raspberry red ray hitting him in the throat and stomach. then an alexdrandrite ray(alexdrandrite is one of the few gemstones which actually change color.they say it is a ruby by night and an emerald by day) completely immersing him from top of the head to the bottom of the foot. his reaction to it was remarkable too. instead of going down,he immediately began to move around the field shouting and singing. when i looked closely i realized this was a shout of joy. he seemed to be in a state of euphoria.he began to dance around and sing. once i saw him literally jump for joy-something i do not see in very many people i come across,dream or waking state- i ran into- Dr Isiah. he congratulated me on my quick thinking and swift action [continued]
[continued] but by now the advantage had passed to our side. the gemstone and fruit colors grew thicker. the metallic beams began to slacken. now occurred the part of the dream which i noted the most . by now the greater number of the first wave and many of the second wave were on the ground, the third wave were falling back. now it was observed with satisfaction that they were now definitely on the defensive. our own side was advancing. some of the obstructionists were lying on the ground,some were standing and a few of them were still defiant. one tried to get up and say something but the minute he began to speak “it will not and cannot-” but that was as far as he got instantly a beam of white-silver light hit him and he was down. some others tried to speak saying “this is impossible” Dr Isiah gave a signal and three beams one,gold one pine green and the third one ocean blue hit him and down he went [continued]
[continued] it was truly an unforgettable sight, seeing the whole area explode and implode in a plethora of colors. gemstone rays(our side) mixed with mineral beams (our side and theirs) mixed with metallic rays (theirs) and some of the beams were so intense they could almost be described as solid light. looking at it was a truly breathtaking sight. one could easily forget what this kaleidoscope-like scene represented .it had an almost hypnotic effect . but i did not permit myself to surrender to such a feeling.i was too conscious of what the consequences would be. some of the combatants did not have such resiliency,however. i saw some of them wandering the field in a daze, some of them with a dizzy expression. others seemed to have the faraway gaze associated with battle shock. small wonder. i noticed a group of the enemy coming silently through the trees. i told Dr Isiah about it. he said “get ready. they are trying to catch us by surprise” i looked at my weapon. it was set to fire on maximum. and a very good thing. because about 5 minutes later a burst of metallic beams issued forth from the copse of woods where i had first spotted them. first a volley of fire,then they rushed us. Dr Isiah had seen to it all of ours were informed about it. we were prepared for it. then our return fire which knocked maybe about 1/3 of their first wave down. they were tenacious fighters,though . they came at us in a body some of them firing as they came. Dr Isiah helped to repel this attack in person. his beam fired a pineapple yellow color. this was the only time i took part in actual combat. i saw one of the enemy aiming directly at Dr Isiah. instantly i raised my weapon and fired. it was a white beam ,rather a coconut white which brought him down. then Dr Isiah led a counterattack. they fell back but continued to send in their fire from the clearing ahead [continued]
finally i will complete this dream. i have had more problems posting it than any previously. why that is i do not know but here is the rest of it
I dreamt of my deceased younger brother that died from suicide in 2020 (36 years old) (intentional overdose by herion) in a swimming pool of clear water asking 2 men to bring snakes to kill him. The men brought the snakes to the pool to kill him, and then pulled his lifeless body out of the pool. I just watched and didn’t do anything to stop it then woke up.
Not the first time I dreamed about him,but he is always in a bad situation.
Currently, I am starting new job in the financial industry (worked in the field 4 years ago), I have financial worries, newly married past January, and we are trying to have kids in the near future.
A couple months before his suicide, I was suicidal and diagnosed bipolar 2, and I went to live with him and my Mother who is now deceased to try to better my mental health.
My younger brother was an bad alcoholic, and was waiting for a bed in a rehab. At the time, he was going through a divorce and the same day he had to go to court due to his ex wife filing a no contact order for him to not talk to or see his kids, after the judge granted the order, he bought a bunch of heroin and intentionally overdosed. My mom found him dead the next morning. I moved back with my ex girlfriend a month before this happened, and on the day I was moving back to my ex girlfriends, my brother and I had a terrible verbal fight (he was drunk) and we never spoke again. My mom was found dead in her house 2 months later.
Dear James,
I am sorry to hear of your family’s losses. The question that the dream poses has to do with why you would have the dream. The dream is kind of retelling metaphorically of your brother’s mindset that led to his untimely passing. You are actually on what seems to be a very positive path in your life in creating and trying to support a new family. It seems that memory of your brother and mother impinges on your current success. It seems that you have created some healthy patterns of interacting, but you probably have a certain amount of anxiety about whether or not they are going to stick in the long run. Your mind will go to places like the dream to show you that the negative future could be a reality for you, but your actions and successes prove that you can keep getting to closer to your spouse and thenoing have a great family. The energy you need is confidence in what is working so that you can continue it and make it solid.
Though your brother’s death is tragic, you can have a very happy and successful relationship yourself. You probably already are getting a lot of counseling support because it is key to maintaining any kind of confidence. The goal for you is to set aside the suicide’s big negative impact on so that you can be much more competent and have a positive mindset going forward. Focus on the positives you are building.
Richard! I have been dreaming about my grandmothers house consistently over the past 10 days — about 5-6nights. The dreams are all odd in their own way but my grandmas house is the common theme. In one a few nights ago I distinctly remember I was taking a path and it came to a fork a long slight curve to the right or a quick, wide almost U curve to the left and I took the left and things kept happening to me. I cannot recall if they were positive, negative or neutral. Then there was this large pipe that went right through her drive way, like a foot on top of it.
My grandmother passed Xmas Day in 2007, but she was wonderful and we were close. We would spend summers with her and she would care for us when we were sick and her house was a fun place to be and I had a lot of cousins I would hang out with there and when it comes to her and her house there is nothing negative. In waking life her and I experienced a weird encounter with spirit. Her husband had passed a few years prior and he would often holler at us kids for running in and out. Well on a summer day she had all us girls over and we were tanning and playing in the pool and running in and out for drinks and snacks. Well my grandma and I walked into together and shut the door behind us and the door shut towards the kitchen on the right and the living room was behind the door to the left (so the hinges were on the living room side). When we shut the door and walked toward the fridge to open it the controller on the arm chair lifted up about 6-8in from the arm of the chair and slammed a good 4-5 feet away into the buffet table (that was closest to the door hinges). We laughed it was my gpa being upset about running in and out but it was odd and no way it could have been from the door closing.
Dear C,
When you are in your grandmother’s house, which was mostly a positive experience, it calls on you to embrace the positive qualities that your grandmother had for you. She was warm and loving and gave you a lot of space to be yourself. When you are that kind of person, it just seems like a lot of interesting things will happen to you. It allows you to experience life more fully so that you can put yourself out there.
I like the experience with grandfather letting you guys know that he was around from time to time.
i will have the rest of this dream posted very soon. you may be interested to learn the development you spoke of actually does take place. i mean evolving from the US vsTHEM outlook to the US outlook. that happens. you will see how.
[continued] i did not have long to wait. as Dr Isiah said the attack was not long in coming. the brush and wooded area directly in front of us suddenly exploded into a huge flash of metallic and mineral beams,so intense it seemed like a single field of sheet lightning. and then on they came in a single rush. i think they intended to take us by surprise and overrun the whole position before we could make any effective resistance. but Dr Isiah was not going to fall victim to a surprise attack. he had already informed all the members of the party,including those few not directly engaged in combat of the situation and seen to it they were prepared. suddenly the whole brush erupted into a kaleidoscope of colors. deep hues light colors such as sea green and sky blue mixed with fruit colors such as raspberry red, blueberry, mango, and lemon yellow and lime green mixed with gemstone rays like emerald green and blue,sapphire blue and yellow, and topaz yellow and green, blue and red beryl and Citrine andTanzanite. the sight was beyond the power of words to describe. it was truly breathtaking. so powerful and intense was this salvo that the first wave of the obstructionists was completely knocked down, every ray and energy beam hitting its target . the second and third wave of attackers spread out and returned fire. Dr Isiah had placed our side so as to catch them from front and sides at once. that is, our fire came in from three directions. they had come charging on , only to find themselves caught in a cul-de-sac of fire. not only that but the terrain was such that they were divided into sections. the enemy leader saw the situation at once and gave the signal for the first group-the ones who had led the attack-to fall back and regroup. those of them that were still standing promptly did so. so the hostile party changed their tactics. the advantage of surprise,having been lost , they now advanced in small groups of maybe 10 or 15 taking cover and blazing away at our position from behind trees ,bushes and rocks as they approached slowly. we did the same. [continued]
This is pretty interesting part of the dream because it doesn’t seem to be so much about you, but more about Dr. Isaiah. So I am asking myself who he is metaphorically. What I seem to be coming up with is that he is part of you that can lead in incredible ways. The reason he is him in the dream and not you is because you haven’t identified yourself internally as that kind of leader type. It seems that you do have the capacity however.
dear Richard, yes,as you state there will be a tremendous cleansing and healing. the rest of this dream will see your prediction come to pass.
(I’m 20) Dream that I was an old man at the end of my life, age 98. Year 2101. Have a quick vision of a light tunnel with images of things going through my life of what I accomplished, the most clear one I can remember is earning my psychology degree. Then I feel like I succeeded in acting (hasn’t happened yet in the now) I am in a street where it seems a little more futuristic and a cop comes and sees me driving when I’m about to fall over but then I feel immense gratitude and happiness and hug him and hug myself before going to a hospital
Dear Armando,
The purpose of the dream is to show you that if you see the future as having achieved positive things in your life, then you will actually be able to achieve them. Being able to have crystal clear vision of the future possibilities is one of the main processes you need in your life right now. It doesn’t matter if it is psychology and/or acting, but that the goals are aligned with who you are. In the future you also have gratitude, which is one of the main abilities you need to make and sustain a living. Being thankful instead of complaining brings bounties to you.
Hi, I had a dream that I was walking in a farm field and found a dead body wrapped in a polythene. I opened the polythene and saw a beautiful half burned woman wearing a sky blue colour blouse. I haven’t seen her face or rest of the body parts except breast. Her Left side breast was open and burnt and right side was having blouse on it. I put her breast out from the blouse and and saw that it was burnt a little bit from below. Her nipple was so fresh and hot that I wanted to suck that but I left her and walked away. After going away from her I felt that my left hand (this is the hand from which I put har breast out) is feeling an itchy sensation and black smoke is coming out from it. After that I listened her voice saying that she will take her revenge from me.
And I woke up. I haven’t hurt anybody or seen something like that in my life but in dream. What this dream represents?
Hi Ravi,
Sorry for the late reply. I think that the best way to look at this dream is to think of the woman who is half-burned as your own inner feminine qualities such as being more compassionate, intuitive, etc. It is not so much that you have hurt others, but that those parts of you have been hurt. When you can process the hurt and then let it go, you will find that you can work more fully on developing those aspects of yourself. They tend to really help when relating to others.
drear Richard, at last my health has improved enough for me to post the rest of this dream.you should see the remaining parts posted soon. as you point out not the result but the effort put into it.i am glad to be able to say i did not shrink from my duty ,but this is one my longer and more complex dreams so there is more. i should have it posted by next week
[continued] then the entire place exploded in a burst of color and light as everyone commenced firing their weapons. the bolder obstructionists-for lack of a better term this is how i will refer to them from now on-who were standing in the direct path of the volley took hits from beams from all directions .they were knocked down almost instantly. their comrades in the woods returned fire immediately. so as a matter of course our own side turned and directed their fire toward them. it was an unforgettable sight,the many multi-colored beams and rays going back and forth. the rays of our own side were distinguishable by their intenser ,sometimes fruit colors. those of the enemy had a more metallic tinge, such as steel gray or copper color. i can recall one incident where 2 of our beams actually crossed paths with 3 of theirs. now these beams could be adjusted in width and length depending on the terrain and the closeness of the target. as you can well imagine these were at maximum thickness and so long they seemed like small searchlight beams. 2 of ours one cherry red and the other blue-violet directly ran into 3 rays of copper,silver and and lithium. the result was simply indescribable. it also lit up the whole area so that everyone now had a very good idea of where everyone else was. now the marksmanship became 7 times as accurate. and the fighting 7 times as intense. i ran into Dr Isiah who greeted me ” quite a lively morning eh? ” i told him it was awesome but i hoped never again to see another such morning. he chuckled. “keep your weapon ready.you are going to have to use it soon” ME: i sincerely hope not DR ISIAH: alas,for life’s frustrated hopes. out beyond that clearing they are forming to attack ME:how soon do you think? DR ISIAH: in about 10 minutes. i examined my weapon and switched it to maximum strength, not wanting to take any chances with the obstructionists who i knew meant business [continued]
Hi James,
This part indicates that you are in a bit of awe at the coordinated power and what it is capable of. It means that you have both courage and cooperation mixed together. In the future, after you sense this feeling, you will be able to use it in your life for all kinds of amazing goals where the enemy energy will no longer be present. You will move from us/them to only us. For now enjoy the ride of having a courageous self that is capable of connecting and working together with others.
Hi Richard 🙂
In the dream I was alone in the wilderness & it was snowing. I was trying to learn how to survive in the wilderness & find hiding places because I knew soldiers were coming & would harm me. I was looking down at deep cliffs & feeling a sense of loneliness & giving up. As I was struggling I said to myself ‘I don’t think I’m gonna make it’ then suddenly the scene changed & I was in an alleyway with gates & doors everywhere. I was trying to jump over the gates to get to my family, but each time I tried, I found myself back where I started. It was like a maze or an illusion & it was terrifying. It was as though no matter where I ran or how many gates I jumped, I was back at square one. It was getting darker & I was scared I wouldn’t get to my family. In the dream I felt sad because I just wanted to be with them. I finally figured it out & I managed to get home. But my family were people I didn’t recognise in real life, but in the dream I knew them as my family. They had demonic faces & were trying to harm me. I had to get back to the maze/alleyway to escape my family & I found myself stuck again. & that’s when I woke up. Thank you Richard
Dear Lin,
In the dream you are trying to survive in a hostile environment where there is coldness and threats. It seems as though it is about the culture you are in. It is hostile and threatening to who you are internally and where you are trying to get to in life. It is like there is no escape from their negative ways and no way out. I am going to tell you what the way out of the maze is and how to deal with your family and culture. The way to deal it is to develop the virtue of integrity, which is the ability to be true to yourself, to your inner true self. When you relate fully to who you truly are, you will always find other people who can be as true friends and close associates. It takes a step of courage to be true to yourself and not give into negative cultural and familial ways. People will test you always, but be assured that there are a lot of people who are on your side.
I had a dream that I was flying in a space ship towards a forest or a land. There were deformed versions of me of my younger self in the ship that they were happy that they were going to the “promised land”. I remember feeling sad and uncomfortable because I did not want to go there.
Dear Lily,
The reason that your deformed versions of your younger self is on the spaceship is because it is headed to a place where it can heal and then become whole. It seems like your younger self wants you to spend a lot of time in the forest as a way of healing yourself. There is no doubt that being in the forest has a lot of healing powers. Do not resist spending time healing. It is not that you have to stop your regular life. You have to make a fair amount of time for healing.
[continued] we did not have long to wait. soon we heard the noise of approaching horses. dr Isiah came gave the signal to be ready for combat. soon an armed body of men began to be visible through the trees. then more of them. then a group of horse men off to the right. i could feel the tension building in the back of my neck. they were moving fast now. there must have been at least 120 of them. then one of ours who somehow had not taken cover when everyone else had exposed himself in the center of the clearing where we were. i heard someone shout “there’s one of them. Capture him” then i saw a narrow red-orange beam aimed just above his head slice an overhanging tree branch in two. it fell a few feet in front of him. by this time, they had almost reached the circle of dried leaves which was the boundary for our camp. a few of the more enthusiastic among them had already crossed it. and one of them was pointing his weapon directly at our man. he said “throw up your hands and surrender” he had hardly gotten that out of his mouth before Dr Isiah gave the signal. [continued]
Dear James,
This part shows you that when a negative force with a lot of resources come at you, you have the choice of two options. One is to run and hide, which, if it were the right choice, would be about living to fight another day. In this case it seems like the energy being called forth in is to just give it your all in whatever you do and let the chips fly where they will. The outcome is unimportant. What is important is the all out effort and being so into it.