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We see many dreams….. But if we see 9-10 dreams which denotes the happening of same event, is there probability of happening of that incident in real life? Dreams are different though they point towards same event.
Dear Anu,
Send me the dream so I can tell you something about it. The answer is yes, but it could also not happen.
Good evening
my dream that I can recall to my remembrance. We had just moved in till like an apartment or like on a townhouse it was brand new no pictures no nothing there was a TV in the front room that was all in the house and a bed it wasn’t decorated or anything we had moved in and it was all whit.e I had my cell phone was calling and texting my husband he didn’t answer nor did he ever respond to my text messages. He pulls up in the yard I go outside to the front porch and walk down the steps he’s in a black Ford Ranger(he actually had one years ago which was totaled) the Ford Ranger small but it was hauling a black Dodge Ram. In the Ranger he was driving and there was a friend do not really remember the friend doesn’t look too familiar in the back seat of the Ford Ranger was a Hispanic lady and she was pregnant and she was wearing a white dress with the blue flowers. She comes inside my husband comes inside we come inside and my kids are just laying around in the front room they’re not watching TV or anything they’re just looking. So then the woman goes into a bedroom and I’m looking at her and I am upset so I asked her is that my husband’s child she says yes I said are you living with us and she said yes and she then I ask her did you know we were married and she says yes, so I started to choke her she turns into a lamp and I break the bulb on the lamp I take that lamp and my husband is in the tub but he still has clothes on. I take it to his neck and I tell him you’re such a liar you’re such a liar. I take the lamp and I go to cut his neck and I cut it enough to hurt him but not to wound him and he’s like not remorseful and he gets a mirror and he looks in it to see how much damage I’ve done to his neck and it was really a scar so I kick the trash can that’s in the bathroom and it goes into the tub with him. The shattered glass from the bulb was in the trash can so now it’s in the tub with him. I walk out and I’m like I can’t live here anymore I got to move I got to call your mom I got to call your dad can’t believe you’re doing this.
Hello & good evening. So before I being I just want to explain I will be giving you 3 dreams that I’ve had in the last month. I believe they are all tied in because of the person involved.
1st dream: all I can remember is I was on the side of the road in a dark neighborhood. One of those neighborhoods you know you shouldn’t stop in. But I was on the side of the road with a flat tire & truck seemed to be overheated. Also I’ve never seen this neighborhood or truck before. You can tell it was late & at this point I must of done everything I can because I was frustrated & upset . out of nowhere an EX of mine appears . literally comes to save the day. Fixed my tire & whatever was wrong under the hood. The whole time we were chatting talking joke bumping into each other all cute like. But once I was ready to go she just have me a quick hug & left . no nothing just hug & left……
2nd dream: I was working construction on a high rise. I was carrying something while walking across a beam. I slip & fell. I caught myself but could only hold on for so much longer. As I was slipping & knew this was it for me because no one was around to help. I gave my last look up to take my final last good breath I looked down to see my path of fall then out of nowhere again wearing a harness & helmet comes my EX giving me shit this time. ” I bet you weren’t wearing your harness huh?” ” I know your not about to give up & let go!” then right as she can tell i was going to drop she says ” just let go nerd, I’m here you know I got you” so i let go & as I fell I had such a heighten feeling of fear but then before I passed by her falling she caught me by my hand like nothing. Helped me on the beam she was on & gave me a harness & said put it on. So I did. She gave me a hug this time & peck on the cheek. Before she left me this time she told me ” I got you, just because you don’t see me don’t think I’m not” then she pushes me off the beam but the harness catches me so now I’m just embarrassed hanging there.
3rd dream: in my Last dream I was in a hospital because of some kind of accident. I was pretty beat up & in bed with tubes & stuff. The doctors at this point have done what they can & now was up to me to get through the rest. In this dream I saw everything through a 3rd person view. Spirit/ ghost like. Then I stood outside my room looking at myself. Then again out of nowhere my EX is standing next to me. She ask me what I was doing floating around. I just said “idk, What’s the rush.” then she just tells me ” you don’t think you already wasted enough time” i just said “no not if it involves you” she just gave me a look saying “dork” then she said “for reals go back now it’s time.” before I went back to my body she told me “that’s it ok…no more. Hurry up & fix everything next time I see you, you need to b e ready to see me” then she kissed me & I woke up with that falling feeling that woke me up.
I’ve had these 3 dreams in the last month. This has been a hard month for me as well. Going through a lot of changes right now.
Also the ex that I’m dreaming about I haven’t seen in over 3 years. She in engaged & has a child with. I don’t know if that’s useful but just to give u back round .
I had a dream about a woman I’m in love with but haven’t seen in over a year (she ended our friendship after I told her I loved her). I was at a house in the woods and she came around the corner of the front gate smiling at me and ran up to me and jumped into my arms. I held her tightly and we both laid in the grass and I closed my eyes and imagined us both in a field in the countryside lying together being happy. Then I opened my eyes and she was gone and I could feel something in my mouth. It was a plant that was down my throat. I started pulling at it and it was a vine that would never end. I kept pulling and pulling and gagging and it wouldn’t end. Then I woke up. What does this mean?
Dear Molly,
This dream means that it was ok to get really close to the other person, but not as in romantic-type love. When you went for romantic type love in the dream and in real life, you thing you had with her ended. Closeness was great, but romance was not correct. The plant is a symbol of growth, but it is not in the right place. You were supposed to grow in your ability to get close to people, but you gagged on the growth because it went in the wrong direction. Closeness, it turns out, is much more powerful an attribute to have than romantic love.
i dreamed i am having sex with unknown person
NB: i have this dream a lot of times and never seen his face
Dear Nory,
This dream has a lot to do with the metaphor of what sex means rather than having actual sex. Sex in a dream usually means becoming really close to someone, intimate. It is not necessarily physical intimacy but emotional closeness or spiritual closeness. An unknown person means you are developing the ability to get close to all kinds of people, even people you do not know. When you can do this, it will be amazing for you. So keep working o it.
thank you 🙂
I was in a place that looked like a school. The front gate of the school was equipped with thermal sensor to detect anyone leaving the school. The gate was black and made out of metal with red brick wall at its both sides. One of my seniors quietly disabled the thermal sensor and told me to try escaping the place. I cautiously climbed over the gate and walked towards the right. Somehow the guards saw me leaving. I was caught immediately and sent back to the place where I came from. Not long after that, my senior unlocked the gate and told me to escape again. This time I ran towards the left but was caught by the guards again. This scenario happened twice but I was still unable to escape as I was not running fast enough.
Suddenly, I was in a lecture hall and found out that I was a dangerous creature. The guards and teachers were trying to contain me in this place. While I was cornered by a teacher, one of my friends unlocked the front door of the lecture hall and told me to run. I ran out of the lecture hall towards the front gate and leapt over it, escaping the place for the fourth time. I ran towards the right with full speed. The places I had passed by looked similar to the shops and residential areas I had been to in real life. I ran as far away as possible. After running for a while, I reached a row of shops that mostly sell food. As I was exhausted from running away, I stopped by one of the shops to get a meal, thinking that I may be far enough for the guards to lose me. I suddenly found myself in a car with my father at the driver seat, we were at the opposite side of the row of shops. I ate my meal while still keeping an eye out for any guards nearby. The dream ended with my dad driving me further away from that place.
Dear Kelly,
The reason that you are a dangerous person in a school is that you have ideas that don’t necessarily go along with the way they do things. You are trying to get out and go your own way, but they are really guarded because they want to get you to conform to their way of thinking. It is interesting to me that your father gets you further away as if he knows it is not good for you. What you are developing in yourself is probably independence of thinking and alternative ways of living. You can keep pursuing these paths, but also not fight the system. it doesn’t help the system to change when you fight it. You can change the world when you develop your own gifts like being independently minded.
I dreamt of a pinapple that was already cut in half and was inside a kitchen cabinet.. only half of the pinapple was inside the kitchen cabinet, I don’t knw who cut it or where the other half was.. what does this mean?
Dear Leah,
A fruit is a metaphor for positive results that come from positive actions. Half of the positive result has come to fruition, but not the next half. If you continue doing positive actions for others, then the fruits will be fully positive.
I had a dream and I was sitting on the couch with the kids standing next to me And my friend who is a girl I like really I’m in love with her She came running in pregnant and she jumped on me and wrapped her arms and legs around me excited about something i was nervous and fearful and anxious focused all at once i also seen a clock but it woke me up heart beating crazy.
Dear Brian,
In real life the dream would make you fearful and nervous, but in the metaphoric world is the perfect dream for you. When a woman is pregnant in a dream it means that she is pregnant with possibilities, like new energy is being created inside of her. No doubt this has something to do with your relationship. The key is to stay positive and keep doing what works in the relationship. Then you are going to have a great time with her.
Hi..i was sitting on a coutch..with kids father..i saw a worm with three dots of blood in the middle of it. It crawl across the carpet. I went to show husband..after i show him the worm streched then grew on the inside, front and back. 3 more dots of blood..after, it crawled fast across cieling..where we sat.
Dropped in my head..i was screaming it wemt into the top of my head..husband held his hand on my head when i tried to get up.i finalley was able to stand..i began scraching my hed all over really hard snd blood started gushing out of my head. The eorm was in my brain
..never ever do i dream this way..it was disturbing..it woke me up..please help
Dear Kathlena,
The metaphor of a worm means that someone is worming their way into your life. It is like they pretend to be nice, but really they get into your mind and try to suck the life out of you. It is probably someone you know who acts as if she were your friend, but takes away a lot of energy from you and messes with your mind. The key to recognize the worm when she starts putting ideas in your mind that doesn’t fit with how you think, to be strong in your own mind, and to not spend a lot of time with her/him.
Sorry I meant the invisible force / mystery man drove the car when it started to move.
I sit in a car in the backseat my family is in the car as well. We drive on a mountain road with a lot of turns then the road starts to crumble and we fall in the ravine. The car ends in a river and I start sinking but suddenly it’s on the side and I repair the engine. I go into the car to sit in the backseat again but this time my family is no longer there and I’m (I think) alone. The car begins to ove and either an invisible force moves but I think there was a man whom I couldn’t see because he was covered in a haze/shadow. I look out the window the sun is low, I check my watch it says 5:00 and we go on another trail. (The sensation felt as if it was someone I knew but also a bit sad atmosphere).
Dear Jesse,
The problem in your family is that you are in the backseat and someone else is driving your life. It causes you to crash and messes up your relationships. While you are able to fix your vehicle, which means that you can fix the way you move from place to place, you need help from the invisible realm to move you forward along your path. Help from the invisible world means help from someone who has passed on that is like your guiding spirit. You can begin to meditate about this and communicate with the spirit. You should also find reliable people to help guide in real life as well, but stay clear of the way your family misguides you and puts your life in emotional crashes.
I enter a class and start screaming at junior students around and start telling them never to enter my class if no one is around. I almost angrily beat the one of the juniors who was arguing with me. After a while, I return to my seat furious cos people around didn’t even see reasons with me nor support me. So after like 30mins when I was calm, I crossed over to the other side of the class to pick something and while returning I turn blind. I couldn’t see a thing. After much struggle, I get a glimpse of light I attempt to see if I can get across to my seat but upon crossing I noticed flood within the gutter that separates both sides of the class. I tried to cross but I fell into the water and am carried by the water to the end of the class. I called for help but no one seemed to care. I used my leg to block the water outlet so that what I was holding wouldn’t be carried away. After a while, a young man came a helped me get out of the water. I was now seating trying to understand all that was happening but suddenly, a man was searing behind me, he asked me “do you know why you are here”. I didn’t answer. He asked again, “what is your purpose for choosing this path”. I was now confused and my hands were now trembling. I then answered him, “I don’t know, maybe it was the option I had”. He then gave me a book “psychology of __ _____”(I can’t remember the complete name). I took the book and thanked him. Soon I think I’m at a friends house. There other people come to visit her too but don’t really take notice of me. Soon I start interacting a little with some of them before I wake up. I am female by the way.
Dear Vivianne,
The dream is about how angry you get about the way others are acting and not attending to you in the way that you want to be attended to. When this happens, you can get to a calm place temporarily, but the effect of your flood of negative emotions is that you get at the back of the class. Fortunately the person at the back is there to help you. The real path to getting ahead in life is through friendship and being friendly to others. This is the important thing. You have some issues about not being attended to properly probably from your parents. To get to a calm place and be friendly to others you are going to have to learn how to attend to your own needs internally, to give yourself what you need, and then things will start going better for you.
i had a dream of a very big green snake that trying to come near me i was so afraid and asked him to go away but he comes near me he was so big and strong i tried to push him but he bites me in my left and right hands 3 times at the end i run away and my mother saw me crying she said this is what you want and asked us not to kill him
Dear Nory,
Snakes when they are positive signify change. The green represents growth and the snake represents the flexibility and openness you need in order to go for change. The biting means that you when the change comes you have to experience some learning pain which makes you run away from the change. You can start the dream again in your mind by thinking of the snake as positive change and what you have to do to get there. Ask the snake what change it is asking you to make. If you do this while you are awake in meditation, then it won’t be so frightening.
thank you
With all do respect to dreamsforpeace, I got a very different interpretation for that dream. I would say that the Lord is showing you that you have envy, jealousy, and pride issues in both your natural life and spiritual life. Simply brushing it to the side will not simply stop the lies coming against you. The Holy Spirit is asking you that you have a choice to go on this way or end this. The choice is up to you.
I am not sure that you understand my theory very well in looking at the meaning in dreams. It is important to understand that when an animal comes into a dream, it is asking you to take on the positive energy represented in the animal even when the dream is negative. This is because human beings are dual-natured, that is, we have an ego or lower nature, and we have our true self or higher nature. The first part of the dream is her reaction to a big and strong snake-like energy that comes at her. Her reaction is fear. This would represent people in her life that have a big, strong presence but are snake-like in their dealings with her. It is not that she has envy issues. The goal is for her to develop inner strength, but she is going to have to be flexible in order for her to do this. The Holy Spirit is asking her to develop inner strength, but she is going to have to flexible in the kind of environment she is in to do so.
i am more inclined to dreamforpeace interpretation because i dont have envy and jealousy but thank you for trying
I’ve also been having very positive experiences as a result of applying dreamsdorpeace interpretations to real life situations, especially when dealing with snakes.
I was forced to become a leader in a jewish school (not jewish) I tried to run but I was forced to wear and all white robe with a white cloth over my eyes.. The robe was old and had been worn many times but I didnt know what they wanted me to do. I just know they wanted me to lead.. Every time I troed to remove my clothing and be like the other people I was brought to a separate building and told to put it on I was called the Hadassah or hashish is I what they kept calling me or why. It was so real.
This was a dream that my mom had, and something tells me it was a warning that she completely missed. She told me she was chasing me into an old abandoned house (i was in 7th grade at the time, and she had left my abusive father 2 years prior. We did not have the best relationship at the time, to put it lightly) and as she’s chasing me, there’s a pond with these goldfish jumping out of it. She tries to throw them back in, and they keep jumping out. She’s so distracted with these goldfish that she loses me in the chase. What was this dream trying to tell her?
Hi Anonymous,
The goldfish represent the gold that she was supposed to learn in the abusive relationship. The goldfish are jumping out to try to teach her. She was trying to get you to a safe place, but really what you needed was someone who would protect you and teach you how to be strong and assertive. This is the lesson she needed first so that she could teach you. Women need to be strong and assertive so that men cannot cross boundaries in abusive ways just because their anger is out of control.
Dear Mattie,
The jewish school and the old robes means that you are feeling the pressure to do things in the old ways as if you were a Jew. This is probably the pressure you feel in your life somewhere. What you need to do instead is to think of doing things in completely new ways that have never been practiced before. Usually what happens is that in order to live in the current world there are some old things you have to go along with, but for the most part you need to explore new stuff. The reason that new ways are needed is because the new world requires them and old solutions do not work. What worked in Jewish times is not the solution for the coming world. Practice doing new things.
Mattie, This is a really cool dream. The Lord has put a calling on your life. A mantle if you will. He is showing you that even if you aren’t sure how you will walk in this calling He will teach you. Hadassah means compassion in Hebrew. You are being called to be a leader in compassio, Origin of the name Hadassah: Hebrew name meaning compassion and also “myrtle, a myrtle tree.” In the Bible, Hadassah is the Hebrew name of Queen Esther. The white cloth over your eyes is to tell you to let the Holy Spirit lead you and look through the eyes of compassion as you lead. great dream!!!
Once again you are not understanding how to interpret a dream when the emotions presented are negative. If there were no negative emotions, your analysis would be correct, but the negative emotions make it incorrect especially the part of the white cloth. You missed the whole part of her being forced to lead and the metaphor of the Jewish school.
I had a dream a long time ago and I’ve always wanted to know what it meant. This dreams starts off in my house. There was a boy over that I liked at the time. I went in my closet for something and when I walked out I was in a totally different room. It was a beautifully decorated room but kinda had old things in there too. There was a huge square next to the bed and inside there were people at a war table. They were dressed in red coats. There was a dark skin girl on the bed maybe just one years old. I somehow knew that was my sister even though I don’t have one so I played with her for a while. After that I took her and walked out the door. Somehow I found myself on a war like ship. A lady came up to me claiming the child so I handed her over. I walked around the place when suddenly ships were crowding the area. We were at a port. The port was America and these ships that suddenly came were terrorist. Everyone on the ship I was on was scared of them. That’s trump sent missles towards the terrorist and sank their ships. Everyone was happy and the lady on the intercom was cursing at them. Then more ships came. It was more than before. I changed perspectives in this dream and l became one of the terrorist. We went to the port and my job was to set up the bombs and as I was doing this my partner were about to be caught and my partner almost left me so I had to dive into the water and swim to a jet ski and that’s when I woke up.
Hi Mishaya again,
This dream explains the black smoke. You go into your closet which is into your mind of imagination and end up thinking the worst things and one bad thing leads to another. The dream is easily solved by just changing the negative imagination into positive imagining. The difference between negative and positive imagining is that the negative comes without doing anything, but the positive imagination of really positive things happening requires an act of strong will.
Thanks again.
Hi! I have a very vivid imagination and some psycological issues plus I can remember most of my dreams every single night if I choose to. So i am no stranger to really weird dreams. But the one I had two nights ago was unlike anything i have ever expirienced before.
I was struggling to fall asleep that night so I was trying to think about relaxing things to help me. I drifted into a few light dreams but I kept waking up because there was an incredibly loud buzzing in my ears and my heart was beating way too fast. So instead I decided to focus on the rain outside to try and get to sleep. Then i started to hear the sound of an old tv below me ( which I assumed was my basement tenants) which was later replaced by a old radio broadcast. The noise of it was making me feel extremly uneasy. It was then that I realized the rain had complelty stopped. That made me realize it was a dream and I woke up to see that there was a light on outside my door. I checked my phone screen which was black and then woke up for real. And I realized the entire thing including me trying to get to sleep had been a dream within a dream withing another dream. I have never had anything even close to that happen to me before. It was so vivid and i felt pain, heard noises. I think it must have been a mix of sleep paralysis mixed with lucie dreaming or something.
I suffer from frequent nightmares from me running from a man with a knife to having to biry my parents zombie corpses in the living room and I have woken up abd screamed a few times but no dream has ever scared me or disturbed me as much as this one, even if it wasnt about something scary. I didnt go back to bed that night and it haunted me for days afterwards. I dont know why i am so effected by this but it was the most realistic and horrifying thing I have dreamed of yet. Any insight into it would be amazing. Thank you.
Hello, I’ve been having weird dreams for a couple of years but this is just the weirdest. I think it was influenced by what someone told me that day. I use to get sleep prallasis and would halucenate and hear things. This dream took place at my house in my room late at night. Every thing was in its place even my rainbow light. I was about to get up from my bed and walk towards the door when I collapsed next to my bed and a black smoke came over my eyes. Then it went back to normal. I couldn’t move just like sleep prallasis. I asked who are you? I couldn’t say it verbally but I thought it. The black smoke came back. I kept asking questions and the black smoke would come back. I was communicating with something but I couldn’t hear it’s voice. I wasn’t scared of it or anything I just wanted to know what was going on. Towards me waking up all I heard was a cat meowing when the black smoke came back. That’s when I woke up. I absoultly have no idea what this dream means so this is why I ask you to help me interpertate it.
Hi Mishaya,
Actually what you were doing in the dream was pretty clever by asking the black smoke who he/she was, but now that you have the memory, the best thing to do is to do the same thing in your waking life. Go inside to a reflective space and ask the black smoke who are what it is. Black usually represents some kind of fear and smoke is more associated with the remains of left over anger.
Thank you
Dear JC,
The structure of your experience suggests that what you think is real life is actually a dream. This means that you have some kind of difficulty differentiating what is real from what is imagined. It is a scary prospect of living like this. Usually this kind of differentiation happens around 6-7 years old so I am guessing that those were unstable times, maybe traumatic. The other dreams are a cue to some of the fear-related issues. What are you doing therapeutically for yourself? The vivid imagination is actually a powerful ability, but it can go a bit crazy if it is not grounded.
I had a dream a few days ago in the midst of some relationship problems with my fiance, i dont remember any of my other dreams during this time only this one. This was the dream;
the whole scenery was black but i had a feeling i was on the pathway at my church holding my sons shoulders. his father was walking down the path in his military uniform towards us, and my son bolted down the path to hug daddy while yelling “daddyyy!!” and they hug very tightly and then i ran up and hugged him tightly as well telling him i loved him so dearly. what was odd to me about this dream was everyone was covered in a glittery golden aura there were no other colors and when i woke up it was the first time in days i felt at peace and felt insanely happy.
Dear Kara,
This dream shows that your relationship with your fiance and son are actually pretty strong, so it looks like you are going to be good together despite current troubles. You can have problems and work it out. The problem the dream presents is the darkness on the path toward the church. The good thing is that you end up in glittery gold and at peace. Something seems to be off about the church but I cannot tell what it is from the dream.
The other night, I had a dream that I was on a beautiful white empty, sandy beach. It was just me and my best friend, someone whom I care deeply for, and think of romantically. For we are on the same level mentally and feel like only we understand each other, as we are so similar in thought.. I think it was evening, maybe around sunset, because it wasn’t dark, but it wasn’t too bright either. I was sitting or walking barefoot on the fine sand in a swimsuit I assume, and he showed up. We ended rolling around in the sand and shore waves, romantically playing. I’ve never been to a beach, for fear of large bodies of water, but I always thought the idea nice. It was perfect as I lied in the sand, with him playfully pinning me as waves rolled over us. We were one.
Hi Patricia,
This dream shows you what your spirit wants to be able to have in a relationship. It is actually there for your taking meaning that the doors are open to you. The fear of large bodies of water is problematic and will have to be addressed because it is going to come in between you and your dream. You can think of the fear as being metaphoric as well as actual because it relates to you. Water is a relational element in a dream. Fear of the water means some kind of a fear of relational waters, which means that something happened to you in the past. I am going to suggest that you just go for it with the guy, but if you are overcome by fear do a few sessions with me and then the fear will not be in the way. I can work on-line through skype.
I was walking in town, it was the end of fall. It was starting to snow. Winter was arriving. Everything was crisp, autumn colors, cold sharp air. Snow was falling but the sun was out. The city was going about it’s business, I was alone on the street, going somewhere but nowhere in particular. I wasn’t heading for a destination, didn’t need to be somewhere. I was just walking. Some time while I was walking I noticed the scenery change, it became more rural, less buildings, less people, less cars. I was walking on to country roads now, gravel and dirt, grassy fields and woody trees along the way. Eventually even the road was gone and I was in the woods, everything was autumn cold and warm morning sunshine, with cold wet leaves and white snow clumps just starting to form on the ground. I now knew what I was doing, like I knew the whole time but was an audience member watching a movie I just hadn’t been informed yet. I was searching for someone. I was meeting someone here, looking to find someone this far out away from everything and everyone else. Eventually I come upon them on a sparse hill in the forested area. They are in black. A black cloak, black hooded male figure, face obsured with a featureless mask. The feelings this being evoked were so confusing and shaking that they have left a deep impact on me even outside of this dream. They terrified me, a deep primal terror. They had the smell of death on them. I wanted to run from this person but at the same time I did not. The determination to meet with this person was so strong it almost felt like an anger. I knew them somehow. I was obsessed with this figure. It was reuniting with someone I held in a special place.
I was in love with this being. The only way I can describe the emotional attachment to this figure was an eternal adoration and affection. The kind of yearning that physically hurts in your chest if you aren’t with them. It was so strong I was willing to die to be around this person, willing to drop everything and do anything just to get them to look at me, to notice me. I got the feeling that they loved me deeply as well. It was that new, young love, when all you can do is think about that person, every second wanting to be with them even if you aren’t doing anything with them. It was a romantic love but also completely innocent. Adult in nature but not lust.
But it was all of this love, fear, and repulsion from fear all at once. I wanted to be next to them despite the negative aspects they possessed.
He didn’t want me to be there with him though. He just stood there, no communication. I approached him and stood close, feeling the warmth of the sun radiate off of his body in the air, creating moisture as we breathed. We stood together in silence and stillness for only minutes, but each minute was so precious and full of simple existence that it was like years. I was comforted by their presence, fearful but at peace. I felt safe with them, like a child protected by the presence of God the Almighty.
I wanted them to hold me, to stay with me. I leaned into him, resting my face against his shoulder letting my weight press against him. He supported me, enveloped me in his arms. He held me for a time, reluctantly. He didn’t want me there. He didn’t want me to be there with him, not because he didn’t want to spend time with me or didn’t care, but because he did care if that makes any sense. He wanted to protect me by keeping me away. We communicated with emotion rather than language. He wanted me to go elsewhere, be elsewhere, be with someone else. At some point he was gone, vanished. Like in a dream, one moment they’re there, and in the blink of an eye they’re gone, like a faded memory you aren’t sure is real. I went searching for him again. I was distraught and lonely without him. The yearning for this person was so strong; I walked miles and miles asking people where to find him. I was walking the entire world to find him again. Sometimes I knew I was close to him in some places just because I could feel he’d been there, the emotional warmth, the sensation an nostalgia of that embrace would come to me in certain cities or roadsides. Sometimes people would say they’d seen him, they’d tell me where they thought he was going. They’d ask me why I was searching for him. I never had any other answer besides simply, “I need to find him”.
I occasionally did find him once or twice throughout all of the wandering and searching. We’d stand together in silence, or sit next to each other for a while.
Finally I’d found him again but this time I was angry. I asked why he kept leaving, why couldn’t he just stay, why couldn’t I just stay with him. I talked verbally. He communicated, but without words, without gesture, without language like before. I was under the impression that it wasn’t time yet. I wasn’t allowed to be with him because it wasn’t the right time. He told me to stop looking, to find someone else. It was a bitter argument that I couldn’t win. It was like begging a parent to stay with you, to not leave you alone at school. You felt like you’d die without them, that the world would end if they left you to go to work. You knew it was a losing battle though because they ad to work, and you had to stay and learn. I knew somehow this was the last time I’d see him.
He was gone again, in that disorienting missing memery fashion that I was familiar with. I was alone on a street corner in a run down sleeping town in the dead of night. It’d been raining and the streets were wet with frozen rain. I started walks as sporatic frozen droplets plopped against my coat as a headed off aimlesly into the misty night. I searched again, I don’t know how long, days, weeks, months, but I didn’t find him again. I went home, defeated and hollow inside.
Dear Elizabeth,
I love your writing. You paint the picture so well. There are a couple of ways to look at this dream. First you can think of the guy in the dream as the world of humankind and how it is in the present tense. It has a darkness about it, but you also see the beauty and are extremely attracted to the positive in others as if you are in young love with them. The love you are seeking is fleeting because the condition of the world can be very dark which makes it hard to find the beautiful humanity. The other way to think about this dream is that you are good at putting the darkness to the side and seeing the positive in others and being attracted to it, but that the darkness overcomes people and keeps them away from you. They flee not because of you but because of their own selves. The time is coming when people will stop fleeing and humanity will be a beautiful flower garden. It is important to keep seeking the beautiful characters in others, despite it fleeting, because eventually it is going to stay.
All I remember from the dream was that a beautiful princess with a pink gown kissed me on the cheek and I remember that it left a mark on my cheek in the dream please reply as soon as possible this is the first time I have a dream that I feel the urge to interpret it
Dear Moathe,
Being kissed on the cheek that leaves a mark from a beautiful princess is a symbol that means that your positive qualities are very special, so special that a beautiful princess, is attracted to them. If you know what your qualities are, you can use them a lot to do a lot of great things.